~Slushien

PREPARE FOR VERY LONG JOURNAL <3
Read what you want to. xD
Multi-choice today.
Well, yeah, I did come back from France, don't worry. ^_^; Didn't drown across the English channel or choke on a piece of snail shell.
I had half a snail and two frogs legs in the end. xD Only two frogs legs because they came in twos. It was gross. At least they had those bread crumb things covering them, but still, you could see it's bum and everything! >____> *loses 5 mental years* And it's calf muscles and thighs and stuff! I took a bite out of four places, quickly chewed, then swollowed. (Sp?) It's true they taste like chicken, actually. I would have eaten it easily if they told me it was chicken. .-.
And then the snail. *shudders*
I didn't actually have time to focus on what it tasted of. Or the texture. I didn't want to eat one when the time came... I mean, they even left us with the privelidge of PRISING the GODDAMN SNAIL out of it's shell. D< But I knew I'd regret it if I didn't try it. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. ^^
So, I asked Ellen to do the honours for me. Before I could take a breath she had covered my eyes with her hand, cut a snail in half and shoved it in my mouth. >: I sat there for a few minutes with my mouth open while it LAY there. xD And I chewed it. Then swallowed. It took me a bit, but I finally did it. *claps for myself*
There's a detailed explination for you. :3

I haven't been very happy in the past week. I don't think it's anything serious, of course. But I've been feeling tired and un-motivated. The slightest thing really puts me down, and it's just rotten luck that I've been having a lot of those. ;___;

So I take the oppurinity whenever it comes of breaking away to a different world; the internet, even if I find I don't do anything. It's a place where you're finally free to express your feelings, forget your worries and act however the hell you want to. Or at least, it should be.

Can I rant for a bit? I'll do it as quick as I can, I promise.
_{Yesterday I had yet another athletics match, and I did long jump and 1500m. I haven't done 1500m for about a year now, and I thought 800 was bad. Long jump I came first and got a new personal best. Then I had to go and half-kill myself by running with hayfever. :K I don't see how that can make too much of a difference, but by the third lap when I realised 800 wasn't half as bad as I thought it was, I couldn't breath. I wouldn't be suprised by the noise I was making if someone told me I had asthma. Of course, I had fallen behind by the last 200m, but I barely crawled the last bit just to finish. Then it took me a bit to remember how to breathe (sp?). I don't really think I'm unfit... otherwise I wouldn't have been chosen for it..? Feh, next time I'll just remember to cough (up my organs) to clear my throat enough next time.
Same kind of thing happened today. Which really made me feel bad. It's stupid. It's a stupid reason. We have parents evening/at home in three days, and our achievement is being... reviewed in these few days so there's something to say. It's just another sport lesson. We played tennis. One of my favourite sports, and the most accesible for me. xD But guess what? I screwed it up! I didn't hit one shot in when the teacher was looking. She happened to turn her head when I fwacked this outrageous return. And again. And again. She didn't even give me any advice, or whatever you could call it in this situation. I made my partner and I lose about 5 games in total. I felt unbelievebly lame. I know, I'm overreacting far too much.. D: And just to make it all better, my sweet darling teacher critizied my hits infront of the class, explaining in even more detail than I am justnow about how I threw away the match-point with a "typical silly hit" as she's put it before. And indeed, it happened twice. We happened to be drawing in two games when they had to serve to me. That's enough on sports.
Today there were some lame people again. It'd take half a century to write exactly what they did. There were two parts to it... the second part basically involved they running away and leaving me when they thought it was a joke. u.u But I told them not too after a couple of times, and what did they do next? You can guess. First part's even more confusing.
I think I'm being selfish at the moment. I don't feel comfortable with anyone I can go around with at school. I don't feel welcome. I complicate things easily, and maybe I'm just overlooking everything. Not everyone has the perfect friend or two, obviously, but just now I feel I'm the only one in my area who's that far off.
I also get really irritated at... basically everything. My grandmother, which I feel really quilty about. I'm always too brisk around her, that being the suitible word for my actions. At the table a few minutes ago my sister asked me to pass the water. I picked it up and my grandmother said 'are you sure? It's heavy.' The damn jug was partially empty. I didn't want to answer sarcastically because I know it'd be taken far too strongly. And the way she goes 'hmmmm?' really slowly... I feel like such an arsehole right now! This has got to stop!
I just wish I could find some way to look at things in a better point of view; be more optimistic and enthusiastic about stuff; happier. I'm very aware that I'm having one of those times when everything seems to be going wrong when it most probably isn't as bad as we think it looks. But I don't remember feeling this... down.
It's also maybe putting me further down that I don't know.. prepare to hear something cheesy... who I am. I've changed how I act so many times none of it's true; I want to be like so many different things that I'm not myself any more. Only because I don't know 'myself', so I can't really be the judge of that. Someone told me at school she's used to me being energetic and loud and stuff. Sometimes I want to be that person, but I never knew it made any effect on anyone. I think of a model personality to fit but I can never find any. I don't know if the way I act is good or not. If you get where I'm coming from.
Even if it means I should drink half a liter of coke in the morning, or pour a bag of sugar in my mouth before I leave for school, I want to feel in a better mood. </RANTPLZ>}
That was longer than I thought.
But it's better then thinking it over alone. I really needed to tell someone that. Tell the internet that.. :3
I'm doing precisely what Kitty made a stamp about, typing/drawing something without even wanting any feedback or something along those lines. I looked at it in my science lesson, btw. Stalker Slush FTW. C:
Yet... this seems the best way -to- get rid of all this. I don't know why. And it's stupid. Writing this into a Word document and deleting it after wouldn't be the same. I guess it's just like writing a journal with pen and paper, but online and there's people to read it. This is a journal, isn't it? Don't get angry/anything else negative with me, please, because this IS a journal. People do plenty of different things with journals. This is one of them. It may not be the best way to handle things, but whatever, it's one way that I seem to use.

(edit..ish) I'm sorry about that last paragraph there. >___> I suddenly got angry at something.

I bet this all makes no sense whatsoever to you. xD It's fine.
But there is a purpose to it all! Made up right this minute! You can forget the rest if there's even something to forget and focus on this next question to answer!
How do you make youself feel happier?

One more thing. I feel like doing fanart. ^^ So if something comes out of no where for one of you, please don't be afraid.

And it's quiz time!


----------• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

- Name: Anna
- Single or taken: Single xD
- Gender: FEMAEL
- Birthday: August 26th
- Sign: Virgo
- Hair color: Brown D:
- Eye color: Brown D:
- Height: About 5ft 4 or 4ft 5, I forget. xDD I think it's the 5ft one. Pretty sure of that.
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Streyt:3

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- favourite place to shop for clothes?: I shop for clothes? Haha, that's new!
xD
I'd like to go to Camdon sometimes. Everyone's going on about it.
- Favorite designer?: I'd choose one I know, but I have no selection to choose from. :3
- What is your sexiest outfit?: KITTY-VAMPIRE OUTFIT >8D
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans, Roxy hoody ^^
- What do you usually wear?: I like jeans, skirts, I guess, and Roxy/Billabong stuff. I like my surfwear even if it doesn't go with anything else. <3

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: *runs to check* Tresemme. ^___^ I thought so. Not that I know any difference between different shampoo's, really, just I like the bottle it's in. It's big and fun to squeeze.
- What are you listening to right now? I'm not listening to any. I've given my iPod a well earned rest. But my sister's listening to Glukoza. Some Russian.. thing. (edits after 20 seconds) VENGABOYS NOW YAY
- Who is the last person that called you?: I have slight phoneophobia. D: Someone told me they'd phone me today. I made it my decision to pretend I'm having a shower.
- How many buddies are online right now?: Buddies? Oh, none.
XDDD Joking.
9 from school, but they don't know I'm actually appearing offline. ^^

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: Icing. xD Icing sugar. I don't like sweet stuff much, but this is an exception. I'm starting to like marzipan more, too. It's because they both look so pretty and sparkly. :3 Snow.
- Girls names: BOOF, GERMANY, KAT, KEIHICHEY, KIA, KITTY, SHIGURE :3 Alphabetically ordered and caplock abused because you diserve no less. xD
- Boys names: RYAN C:
- Subjects in school: English, art.
- Animals: All but spiders and bugs creep me out, and I think I'd scream if a large snake or shark fell ontop of me right now. Snakes are cool sometimes (I had a live boa around my neck when I was seven <3) and sharks are fun to look at and exciting, and I don't think I'm scared of them... I guess they're okay. xD I especially like fluffy things. Lawl.

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: Naw
- Smoked?: Nope
- Bungee jumped?: No, but I want to some time. I'd be hella scared before I did it. I'm not too good at heights. I can stand at the top of a really high castle no problem, or look down from a hot air balloon or things... but jumping down from heights is a problem. I'd sorely regret it for my life if I never made myself do it.
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: And if I have? XD
- Ever been in love?: Yes
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yeah :3
- Pictured your crush naked?: ...yeah D:
- Actually seen your crush naked?: NOT YET </joke>
- Cried when someone died?: Oh yeah, be it a fish, relative or Disney character... I cry alright.
- Lied: Obviously!
- Fallen for your best friend?: No
- Rejected someone?: ..just a tad?;_;
- Used someone?: Not intentionally, I don't think..
- Done something you regret?: Yes! Yes yes and yes! And yes and yes and *goes on for a while, you might want to read a book or something btw*

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: School sport skirt and T-shirt ._.
- Desktop picture: Ouran High School Host Club. :3
- CD in player: Not sure~
- DVD in player: Donne Darko. *shrugs* Now I think about it, there was no real plot line. They could have taken out the story (or what's left of it) and just left it with the last 3 minutes, would've made no difference. x3
Also, Boof? If you're reading this... something I meant to say. xD A while ago when we were discussing teachers, I remember you were talking about this French teacher who you told to 'forcibally insert (something) up your anus'. Is that a well used-phrase I'm deprived of, have Donne Darko stolen it off you, have you heard it off there, heard someone else saying it or any other possibility I haven't thought of?

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

- You touched: D:
- Hugged: D:
- You IMed: D:
- Talk to online: D:
- Sex it up with: ur mom
---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

- Understanding: Yes
- Open-minded: In most stuff. If that can work.
- Arrogant: No? >>
- Insecure?: Possible
- Random?: ...yes?
- Hungry: No
- Smart: I'm not the judge )8<
- Moody: ...well..
- Organized: Either yes or no.
- Shy: I can be shy. And I can be very out-going.
- Difficult: Well, I'm stubborn.
- Bored easily: Again, it's either yes or no. Not actually sure. Probably not..?
- Obsessed: I don't call it 'obsessed', I call it 'loyal'. ^^
- Angry: Hot-tempered, yes.
- Sad: What's the context? xD Sad sad or sad loserish? Nyeh, my answer's still the same.
And you'll never know what I would have answered.
Neither will I. C:
- Happy: I try to be.
- Hyper: I love to be! And it's possible. ^___^ After a few hours of hyperactivity, I go into quiet mode. It's my alone time. My Slush time. :3 It's kind of like... a balance. Every day I need my Slush time and my hyper time. xD
- Trusting: Yes

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

- Kill?: I can't think of anyone. .-.
- Slap?: This guy. He's rude and annoying. I don't like him. ¬__¬
- Get really wasted with?: YOU
- Get high with: YOU
- Talk to offline: YOU
- Talk to online: YOU
- Sex it up with: YOU :3

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

- In the morning I: ask for 5 more minutes~
- Love is: A BATTLEFIELD
- I dream about: the future. xD Or mass-murderers in school. It's easy to get confused between these two categories, you see. ^_^
- Sexual preference: Ur. Mom.
- What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: Der feyt lawl no dat woss uh joak

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

- Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi sounds slightly more appetizing.
- Flowers or candy: From whom? ;D
- Tall or short: Sumwer in butween

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

- Makes you laugh the most: Sara, especially when she tries to rub the board.
- Makes you smile: Everyone? >__<
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: You do.

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Not that, no. :3
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: My mind can drift to the possibilities of being a man, but no XD
- Wish you were younger: It could work. I want things to be how they used to be for some people, and even though that's impossible, a few months ago would be nice to relive again.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: I'm sure I would have

-----------• × • N U M B E R • × •--------------

- Of times I have had my heart broken: How broken?
- Of guys I've kissed: None~ *brick'd*
- Of girls I've kissed: None~~
- Of CD's I own: Limewire saved the packets of clean CD's in the cupboard to the left of me. :3 Otherwise I make my own.
- Of scars on my body: *counts* Onefoottwostomachthreehandfourface and that's all I can remember.